if girls are bitches and guys are ass holes than why do we bother?
it amazes me how many relationships we all walk into knowing we will probably get hurt.
is it our need for companionship? or our need for validation of another human being?
no friendship ends well and none of them really last forever. so when we accept someone as a friend, we spend the time, we make memories all the time knowing that at some point it will get crushed in one way or another.
same for boyfriends and girlfriends specially in highschool. you know your not gonna marry them but you date them knowing theres an expiration date, knowing full well that it will end and you will cry and all of that mess. and while sure relationships mutually end and its ok but you will always get a little pang in your stomach when you see him with someone else, your never really ok.
and you can look back on old friends and such and see how much they changed you or you changed with them and see how big a part of your life they once were and you have to wonder if they look back at you and think the same thing. once its over when you stop talking and seeing eachother do they miss you? do they remeber you? do they even want to? or does it hurt them the same way it hurts you to think about how happy the two of were once. to think back on a time when you couldnt even imagine your life without them and here you are. wihtout them. and they have this new life and all these new people and your jealous because at once point you were the most important one and suddenly your not. suddenly your nothing.
and why wont our minds just let all of this go why does it have to remind you that you miss someone even if you dont want to and why cant you just shut off being hurt by petty crushes, why when you never even had a relationship with them does it hurt just as much as if you did. isn't it our brain? shouldn't we be able to control when we want to care so much.i wish i could close down my brain sometimes, im so sick of thinking so much becasue all my brain wants to think about i people i dont have anymore.